At this point in time, I thought that things would be a bit more normal, or whatever the normal feels like nowadays. However, week 5 proved to be a little bit more emotional than I expected- maybe because I’m interacting with my family more now compared to the previous weeks, or because I still have some pent up emotions that haven’t come out yet since more than a month ago. Whatever the case is, I think I should let go of that expectation of wanting at least one week that feels “normal”, because it will just make me disappointed. I still have a long way to go when it comes to “letting go” of expectations, no matter how small they are.
It’s been a few weeks since my first update, and I know that I said I was going to post more frequently….. and then real life and work once again reared their heads at me. However, I do hope to be able to continue posting more frequently from now on, and if I’m not able to, I’ll try to give a heads up as well on both this blog and on my social media accounts. So, without further ado, let’s get into my actual first post to officially start things off for this blog.
In the past, the categories of “Understanding Aspies” and “The Aspergirl Explains” categories were dedicated to explain things more related to autism and autistic spectrum disorders, but this year, I decided to open it up a little bit more so that I could talk about mental health issues in general, and more specifically, those that I also experience. So, with that in mind, the very first mental health issue I’ll be tackling for the very first post of the year for this category is something that is very much close to home for me as I have it as well- mysophobia.
More often than not, those who have an Autistic Spectrum Disorder (ASD), may have difficulties with movement or have poor motor skills. Discovering this made things make so much sense for me, as I always wondered why I was so clumsy and why seemingly simple things such as tying my hair up or unbuttoning a button can sometimes be tiring. In this post, I hope to be able to make sense of why motor skills are important and the difficulties and challenges those on the spectrum face with regards to this, and how it affects us.
Whenever I know that I’ll be going to an event, whether it will be held at my house or at a different venue, and regardless of whether or not I will be going with a friend or if I know people there, I always have the same sinking feeling of dread that settles down to the pit of my stomach and refuses to leave until after the event is finally over. As someone with Asperger’s Syndrome, it is not surprising that I have developed a little something called social anxiety or social phobia. Now, having this isn’t a marker of having Asperger’s Syndrome, but is something that I think ends up developing naturally as the years go by based on all the experiences a person accumulates over time.
In my last post, I mentioned that people on the spectrum or those who have Asperger’s Syndrome easily get overwhelmed by everything that assaults their senses at the mall. This is actually true wherever we go, although it differs in what we feel and what sensory inputs overwhelm us. This is due to the fact that we have a lot of difficulty when it comes to processing everything that we see, hear, taste, smell and touch; and sometimes, this can also cause us to become overly tired when we go out as our brain isn’t processing all this input at the same rate as neurotypicals. However, even though we all experience this, just as every individual is different and unique, this affects each autistic individual in a different and unique way.
One of the things that comes hand in hand with being on the spectrum and being an Aspie is the fact that we have our special areas of interest or obsessions. These are specific topics that we feel strongly drawn to, to the point that we will become a little bit fixated on it, and actually learn every single thing about that particular topic whether it be an interesting fact or a trivial one. These areas of interest may come and go at times, but for the most part, these areas of special interest do accumulate over time. However, they are usually pretty narrowed topics, and we usually have a very intense focus on them. These areas of special interest are very much a core part of someone with ASD or is an Aspie, that you can actually learn more about us by taking a look at what we obsess over.